sunsetjade I soak deeply in the days of light, fun and laughter. Opening my mind and heart to let it fill me is easy. The sunshine rises higher and higher filling me from my feet to the tip top of my head…maybe even beyond, spilling and overflowing like rivers after the torrential rain.

Like a party with music and dancing and feasting, everyone comes. “Welcome, welcome”, I call out. “Come and enjoy …isn’t the light wonderful?”. In these moments…I am swept away with joy, like new love igniting the inner soul. Do you feel this too? Invigorating euphoria gives and gives, never tiring of hungry souls. And I could take and take and take…

It’s not until the source of light is out of sight and clouds have blocked the rays, that I look around. ‘Panic’ may be the more accurate word. How is “IT” gone? Where is everyone? I blinked and suddenly they are down the road, specks of black moving farther and farther away. I scan the horizon and squint more harshly now. How did this happen? I look down and around, my head swirling like I’m fighting for life. And maybe I am. This loneliness feels old and cold. Can anyone hear me? I’m flailing like a newborn. What I FEEL is a need to be rescued.  Someone that has the light must return.

And then some thought is whispered in my ear, gently but firmly saying,”Look.Look! You have everything you need”.  I hear the words in the breeze. Free. Charming. Compelling. But I stand baffled, confused, asking, “where”?

I slowly move my gaze to find the voice and find myself looking within.  My own heart is aglow. Quite frankly, I’m startled at what I see and feel. This was here? In me? Have I been so unaware of “ME“? I’m hugged into glorious light. warmth. bliss. beauty. hope. Here all along, waiting patiently like a warm smile from a knowing friend.

This is gray’s gift to those who will not settle; for the ones that NEED the light like all need air.  I did not know the truth until the gray.

Until there was not, did I look within, to find the gift of ME.

I wander from friend to friend, whispering the words carried to me, “Look Look. You have everything you need. You have the gift of you.”